Posted on: Monday, March 30, 2009
Posted at: 11:43 PM
Posted at: 11:43 PM

you know something dad
if mother didn't ask me not to get a job till after my n-levels
i wouldn't have bother asking you for money.
the reason why you're losing money ain't my fault .
it's because you've been spending it on THEM!.
you think they're you're blood father ?
you and mama made me
but HER kids AREN'T YOURS.
I'M YOUR BLOOD.
ME , ABANG AND BAKYU are your blood.
not them .
do you know why i'm such a fucked up screwed up kid.
it's because you!
you never care!
you come home like it's a hotel.
you never take notice of shit.
seriously, once i get older i'll learnt not to be like you
i swear to myself.
and trust me i don't care about your money .
it's just that i can't work yet.
after my n-levels i will NEVER ask you for extra money no more.
God ,
i'm really sick now .
and seriously. i don't think it helps that my father scolded me for asking
money from him!
seriously. i wish that sometimes i really was born into a rich family
a father who was always there
for your birthdays , school concerts
was my dad ever there?
did my father ever do a birthday party for me ?
NEVER.
out of my 16 years i have lived .
i have never had a REAL birthday party.
i don't care this year will be different I WILL HAVE A BIRTHDAY PARTY
at synergy night i was thinking
i SAW my band mate's parents
but were my parents there ?
no,
i'm really sad.
i just wish my dad was there .
it hurts
i understand for my mother
she just had her leg operation .
but PAPA were you there?
did you even bother?
even sending me home would taken you 30mins.
i lied and said my friend's mom offered to send me home
i had to cab home
just to please you.and when i told you i didn't need you to send me home.
it HURTS.
right now i just want to study hard.
and get a good job..
